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Name: Shwank
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Friday, December 08, 2006

Morbid Love

this is something i just stumbled across from my stash of old poems and lyrics whatever... so just thought i'd share with the world

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Though I scream in utter delight
As the bullet passes through the gun
I can feel the pain begin to rise
Hating what can not be undone

I watch in pleasure and in anguish
The life I have simply disposed of
It soon begins to fade, blood running thin
All in wake of morbid love

I know you can see me still
Therefore I smile down at you
I am above you, smiling
Watching as you slip away
You look so god damn beautiful
A wrought expression
Etched into your face
You look so god damn beautiful
With my fingers
Running down your face

Now I giggle with satisfaction
When the smoke finally clears
To find your sullen body
Covered by my tears

Your heart refuses to pulsate
Leaving me tearing at my face
Smiling, I hate what I have done
Kiss your lifeless skin, I embrace

I know you can see me still
Therefore I smile down at you
I am above you, smiling
Watching as you slip away
You look so god damn beautiful
A wrought expression
Etched into your face
You look so god damn beautiful
With my fingers
Running down your face

Its yours
Its all yours
This black...
Can't you feel the pain?
Its yours
All yours
This black orgasm
Can't you feel the pain?
Its yours
Its all yours
This black...
Can't you feel the pain?
Its yours
All yours
This black...


Monday, November 13, 2006

Currently Listening
30 Seconds to Mars
By 30 Seconds to Mars
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So tonight...

swig wanted me to go with him to the Beaumont Club for a concert, which included Black Stone Cherry and Black Label Society

I attended.. not so much a fan of the latter, however they kicked some serious ass.. that and BSC.. pretty fucking amazing..

that and titties everywhere.. woot woot! haha

so i'm crashing, got jccc to attend on the morrow.. or todayo.. yeah ok

night


Sunday, November 05, 2006

Currently Listening
Saturday Night Wrist
By Deftones
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Skeletal Rave

so when was it.. thursday?

yesh, thursday.. wait let me backtrack

tuesday, in my midi comp class, i finally got around to talkin to this girl in there named cara.. cuz she writes some really bad ass music, and i asked her if i could steal her final copy cuz it was pretty kickass, well while ripping it off her flash drive, she told me my song sounded like a bunch of skeleton's rising from their graves and going to a rave party.. thus the name of my second project.. "Skeletal Rave".. then she asked if i wanted to join her in smokin a cig after class, i agreed and so we mosey'd our way down outside, and basically just chatted it up with small talk. mentioned bands and whatnot.. mentioned mine had broken up.. mentioned we were named divine.. and guess what? she's heard of us.. i was a bit surprised.. here's the crazy part though.. i mentioned we had a female singer...

guess what she asked???

"Wait a minute, do you know Jewell Auxter?"

!!!!! wtf!?

so apparently she is best friends with jewell.. amazing! so we became instant friends.. k now thursday
(btw, jewell and i have been pretty good friends since we met about 2 1/2 years ago.. something like that)

Cara, Jewell and Cara's bf Mike came and saw me at the enima buster (blockbuster) and we chilled for a bit, then came closing time so they waited for me

pretty much we got in jewell's car and drove around and smoked orange crush.. some good shit there.. however i didn't get much, left most of it for the two girls, since it was like half a reg bowl.. mike was dd.. i didn't even get buzzed

everyone's worst nightmare.. jewell's car breaks down.. not a gas station for 3 miles.. so we walk, in 29 degree weather and at 2 o'clock in the morning.. it was fun, Mike and I talked alot and got along real well, pretty cool

eventually we find out jewell's car is broke to shit, so mike's friend picks us up and drops me off at blockbuster, i drive home end of story

pretty crazy i tell ya

so, another week to look forward too, im not so excited.. car gets done next weekend though.. so i'm excited for that.. woot woot!


Monday, October 30, 2006

Currently Gaming
Genji
By Sony Computer Entertainment
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ffxii... tomorrow.. yesh...


Thursday, October 19, 2006

Currently Listening
Requiem for a Dream (2000 Film)
By Clint Mansell, Kronos Quartet
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i'm getting pissed.. i'm firing the weatherman, i want little suns with rays and happy faces.. not grizzly mean ole grumpy clouds 



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Nameless Feelings


-Original-
--Tyler James Kelly--




Look at us, we have no faces
There's noone left to embrace us
I feel they've replaced you and me

They can't see us anymore
Time has left us falling down
Who do I feel sorry for?
Left behind in wake, I drown

To all the nameless feelings
I can't deal with in my life
To all the hatred dwelling
Deep inside within my mind
Oh I know it's there I can't deny
The pain inside will leave me dry
I've shed my tears now let me go
Cut the vein, hatred flows

Look at us, we have no faces
Have we left anything behind?
Have they begun to erase us?
Or are we still falling through time?

Even with our endless screaming
They can't hear us anymore
Every word echoes back at me
Our skin's been beaten and scored

To all the nameless feelings
I can't deal with in my life
To all the hatred dwelling
Deep inside within my mind
Oh I know it's there I can't deny
The pain inside has left me dry
I've shed my tears now let me go
Cut the vein let hatred flow


Sweet, Sweet Suffocation



-Original-
--Tyler James Kelly--




Let me breathe...
Let me breathe...
Let me breathe...

I am trying to breathe
Hatred overtaking me
Still trying to breathe
Wake up, still not breathing

Watch me cut my face away
Watch the hatred tear my skin
Oh, my face it bleeds for you
Laughing, drowning me in sin

I can never rid myself
Of the sins you hold inside
Every night I carve you out
Waiting to die inside
I can never leave you be
You are always there inside
Memories shattered, broken dreams
Say hello, to my sweet, sweet suffocation

I am trying to breathe
Malice overtaking me
Still trying to breathe
Wake up, still not breathing

Watch me cut my face away
Watch the hatred press me down
As it rapes the life from me
Oh, smiling as I drown

I can never rid myself
Of the sins you hold inside
Every night I carve you out
Waiting to die inside
I can never leave you be
You are always there inside
Memories shattered, broken dreams
Say hello, to my sweet, sweet suffocation

I am lost forever
Within those broken shards you hold
I have been forsakened
My soul's dead, forgotten, cold
I am lost forever
Within those broken shards your hold
They've been Ground into dust
By the hatred you did trust

Wake up
Still not breathing
Wake up
Heart stopped beating
Wake up
Still not breathing
Wake up
Never waking



Forever A'more



-Original-
--Tyler James Kelly--




I saw her in my dreams
Standing, dancing gracefully
Staring back at me with eyes of blue, oceanic
Dark hair fluttering in the wind like feathers
Yet when I awoke, she was gone
Her dancing and beauty faded away
I saw her in my dreams
But in dreams she will stay
Forever a'more...
When will the day come?
When will it come indeed

--More to come--







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